Why my faith is dwindling

I want to maintain faith in my religion. I began a search for something more at age 18, and still I'm looking. That looking is ok with me. The following makes me sick. In the words of tani palefski (the following was also taken from his blog, sweet gams!):
"Rabbi Ephraim Luft of Bnei Brak, Israel has taken it upon himself to define "kosher music" and ban everything that doesn't fit that definition. In my opinion, this amounts to an abuse of power and an assault on the human spirit."

the following links will sicken you:
http://sweetgams.blogspot.com/2008/09/kosher-music-defined.html

rules: http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/shared/bsp/hi/pdfs/11_9_08_kosher_music.pdf